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The cavity which suffering carves into our souls will one day also be the receptacle of joy. -Neal A. Maxwell Our angel baby, Lincoln, would have turned 9 years old yesterday. He died a week before his 2nd birthday so we have now celebrated 8 of his birthdays without him. Which really sucks. I held it together pretty well yesterday. My sweet students made me laugh and I spent some time in the sun with my kids and one of my most favorite friends. But last night I felt the sorrow and loneliness creep in and by the time my husband walked throughout the door I was done with the day. I told him I was tired of celebrating Lincoln’s birthday without him here with us. And that I was sad. And angry. And all done with this ridiculousness. But with the sorrow and pain that fills my soul I also have much joy in my life. I was reminded of this recently when I tried to put into words what it was like to have rainbow babies ( a term used to describe the children that are born after their sibling has died), for a woman who is pregnant after losing her daughter last year. It was hard to describe in words what that experience has been like. But joy and happiness have absolutely filled our lives. Never replacing the pain. But definitely adding joy to those deep cavities. During these hard times I try hard to take care of myself, so I can better take care of my sweet children who are here on earth. I try and make sure I have some time for myself, even when I don’t initially feel like it ….Biking in the sun is one of those ‘things’ I do. #therapy #wattieinkwednesday
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